Well...like my sister posted, I have moved out of my parents house and into a house with 4 of my best friends. SInce I no longer live in a quiet hosue but rather a very obnoxious, teenager filled house, I don't have much time for Livejournal. I will check in when I can but for the most part, I'll be absent.
To my Marine lovin girlies, thank you all for your support and adive, telling me to keep busy has definitely helped!! Love you all<333 And I'm praying for all your boys.
As I looked around the airport this morning, I couldn't help but cry. Mothers were crying as fathers held back. Brothers and sisters hugging one last time. The wives of these men have seen them go before and each time just praying that they return home. I looked him in the eyes, trying hard to keep a smile. I wanted his last image of me to be smiling without a tear in my eye. But I'm not that strong and through our smiles and laughs, my eyes began to water, my voice began to shake, I trembled as he held me close.
"Come home soon" I whispered. "Anything for you baby. But don't worry about me, have fun this summer and when August comes, try not to forget me when you move on to college." "That's not even funny, I love you more than I will ever love anyone and I'd come with you today if I could." With a slight chuckle he said, "There's no way in hell I'd let you come. I know you're safe here and there's where I want you." Then he wiped a tear from my face and held me tighter then ever before.
Oh my god, I miss him soooo much.
"Honey, you're shaking." "I'm scared." "Kie, look me in the eyes. I've already told you, don't worry about me. I'll take care of myself and be home soon. Now, you need to take care of yourself too and just remember that you are the love of my life."
I kinda don't want tomorrow to come. .....No, I take that back I reaaally don't want tomorrow to come. It is so frustrating when I think that, "well what if tomorrow's the last time I see him?" Bcuz that is not being positive in the least bit! I just need to take a step back and take a breath. I need to look at tomorrow as not a "goodbye" but more like a "see you soon".
Tomorrow will be the first time he is gone for a long period of time. . . . . and he isn't even going to be in the US he'll be in Iraq. =[
My boy is sleeping right now and he told me to wake him up in an hour but I cant bring myself to wake him up lol. He's so adorable and I just love him with everything I have. I can't believe what tomorrow will bring. I'll be at the airport...I'll have to kiss him goodbye and watch him walk away. All I feel like doing is cry but I do not want him to see me to that. I want to be strong for him, be everything he needs me to be.
Okay, talking about him makes me want to be with him! lol I'm going to go wake him up now so we can spend some time together ;)
My sister finally convinced me to get a livejournal. I usually resort to a hand written journal but since Dickie is going to Iraq on friday there could be a chance to get to a computer ever so often. And right now in my life that is the main thing I think about, my US Marine. He's my life and I just pray for his safety and that he comes home soon.
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